a song from my soul to yours

tattoos of rain on a canvas that started out plain, goin through life as if it were just a game. tryin to hold on to the things that might not matta, but who's to know whether or not you'll get any fatta. the point is we all get old, grow up and out until our bodies die and grow cold. so what are you livin yo life for? are you passin through, or could you have a purpose given by the one who created you? don't think that this life is just a joke cause you have no vision of bein different from a demon or lycanthrope. just remember that you were sent here to do the work of the divine, call it what you will but keep this in mind that God has a plan so you betta understand that when you seek, you shall find. once you can comprehend just take His hand and you can be part of this adventure too. join Gods family and you'll always be free, don't give in to the one who'd pull ya unda the see. keep from sin and all that is evil, accept Gods love, become a believa. do that and yo life will change, it'll turn around and you'll see betta days. not ev'rythin'll be easy but you'll soon find out when you die you'll be in heaven with Jesus reachin out. He'll say he's with me cause he's always got yo back  follow behind him and stay on track. then you can rap with Jesus and all ya bros, know Gods taken care of you and all ya woes.

The Red Headed Step child

The other part of you

What are relationships if not pieces of you that were missing to begin with? we all strive to make friends, although many of the relationships we start won't flourish into deep and strong friendships. We still reach out towards others to make ourselves significant in one anothers lives though. So what is the key factor that will create a more significant relationship, what brings us to the point of trusting another human being with our deepest dreads, wishes, or insecurities? I don't thing there is any single answer to any of those questions but I still have to ponder the thought as is splinters its way into my conscious mind, how many people have I given a significant piece of myself to and how many more will I give before I find someone whom will want to reciprocate that token of something more than a casual friendship? I seem to have acquaintances and standard friends coming out my ears but finding a genuine friend whom cares about you just as much as you care about them is much more difficult to come by. It may be that I'm just feeling the effects of loneliness more acutely now that many of my friends have significant others to spend much of their time with, It makes me wonder when my time will come to share my life with someone I care about as well.

It's often very frustrating to have friends of the opposite sex be overly nice, because that can recurrently be misconstrued as affection for you and put hope in your heart that something might come of it but that is rarely the case it seems. I blame myself for these encounters for I oft find myself indecisive on whether or not I would want anything to be more than what it is and in doing this I fear that I lose an opportunity that might have been seized. Hopefully this will change sometime soon. Wish me luck.

The Red Headed Step Child