What are relationships if not pieces of you that were missing to begin with? we all strive to make friends, although many of the relationships we start won't flourish into deep and strong friendships. We still reach out towards others to make ourselves significant in one anothers lives though. So what is the key factor that will create a more significant relationship, what brings us to the point of trusting another human being with our deepest dreads, wishes, or insecurities? I don't thing there is any single answer to any of those questions but I still have to ponder the thought as is splinters its way into my conscious mind, how many people have I given a significant piece of myself to and how many more will I give before I find someone whom will want to reciprocate that token of something more than a casual friendship? I seem to have acquaintances and standard friends coming out my ears but finding a genuine friend whom cares about you just as much as you care about them is much more difficult to come by. It may be that I'm just feeling the effects of loneliness more acutely now that many of my friends have significant others to spend much of their time with, It makes me wonder when my time will come to share my life with someone I care about as well.
It's often very frustrating to have friends of the opposite sex be overly nice, because that can recurrently be misconstrued as affection for you and put hope in your heart that something might come of it but that is rarely the case it seems. I blame myself for these encounters for I oft find myself indecisive on whether or not I would want anything to be more than what it is and in doing this I fear that I lose an opportunity that might have been seized. Hopefully this will change sometime soon. Wish me luck.
The Red Headed Step Child
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